I forgot

[Drek]

I forgot....

I forgot the disgusting segment from the past... the detestable things, the blood,

the soul poured on the cheeks, left there to dry like a tissue...

I forgot the evil,

that was tearing apart my psycho-physical build,

somewhere back in time...

I forgot....

All those nightmares and madness, when the night kills in the dream, the anxiety

in the faintly morning opening the day,

I forgot the futility of the looks in the eyes,

the itch in the heart...

In all that gathered sadness,

on the heavy pounds of memory,

in 66 kilograms human, a pile of poison...

I forgot...

I forgot about my dead past, the clear end sight and the dead end 

of humanity...

I forgot to cry,

to grieve,

to curse and pray,

I forgot to kill myself...

I forgot to extinguish the emotions in countless bottles of alcohol,

I forgot to vomit what's inside, to disconnect and connect from the outside,

I forgot to hope about death...

I forgot the yearning after the cold kiss,

I forgot the stupid expression of human weakness,

on the other side of the mirror...

I forgot the disappointments,

the broken pieces of glass psyche,

the crushed emotions,

the ferocious core of life...

I forgot...

I forgot to sing about the darkness,

I deleted her face from the covers of the books,

I crossed-out the loneliness,

from every strophe marrow...

I forgot to caress the evil,

the first hour,

the first time i made love with your spirit... I forgot to count time

at the time i gifted you my soul, to keep it inside you, to be yours forever...

I forgot to hug the end,

at the first second of our beginning,

from our beginning,

in your heart,

in my heart...

At this our time,

I forget the misery,

i meet it and learn it,

THE LOVE... I enjoy the love, forgetting... 

Forgetting the shadows, 

horrors and miseries...

I'm not pitiful when I'm lonely,

I'm not suffering and weak,

I found more inside me,

I found more inside you,

for me,

for you,

for us... for our future... for the love.

There are more lives for us both...

I forgot to be alone with you,

for myself,

here with you... near you,

inside you...

I forgot...