A journey by the dark side

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(03-04-2016, 03:21 PM)Fenix-TS Wrote: Thanks for the words of encouragement, but I need to clarify a few things...
First, I don't think not even for a second, that my "purgatory" is such a big deal, sure it hurts, but in comparison with so many others, it's nothing.
Second, I have my kids and they are the most important thing in the world, the best thing I made and ever will, and yes...I always want to be a mother, so that's a DREAM COME TRUE.
Third, my husband (he still is) is not a bad person, just conservative and supple by others (I keep those "others" for myself).
Fourth, the sex wasn't that bad, just not as good and intense as I want it to be, routine stuff, normal after several years, only I don't consider myself a "normal" person (on that subject I have to blame myself for allowed the routine settle in).
Fifth, I also blame myself for letting my dreams die, I get used to the life I had and that's the part that hurts the most... all I became is my fault and realize that, gave me the strengths I need to "going up" after hit the bottom.
Sixth, the future isn't yet written, for now I live one day at a time, licking my wounds, doing the things I like to do, IRL walking near the sea, driving around (also near the sea), loving my kids more and more (even being a boring mother); In-Game with a LITTLE HELP FROM MY FRIENDS I keep having fun and living my fantasies (the ones I like)

It is exactly for this reason that you are so, so much more than a bibelot in the soft confinement of your lifestyle. Much more than a trophy wife, or a trophy mother, more than the unrealized dreams that you held onto from years past. You once told me not to follow in your footsteps on this thorny path, but I think that regardless which path I take I would love to follow in your mindset. Queen is right – you are part of la creme de la creme that keeps my affection strong for the community!

Besos y abrazos from a fellow sociologist, lover of the sea, "abnormal" woman,
soju