People really do get off on anything, I guess. But if everybody involved enjoys it, and no actual harm is done, there shouldn't be any problem. As long as these.. 'fantasies'.. remain only fantasies..
I personally struggle to see how anybody could derive pleasure from this, whichever side of it they are on. I understand you wanted to test your limits, try everything there is to try, and whether you enjoyed it or not isn't the most important; you wanted to learn and to experience new things. And while you may have been uncomfortable at times, if you truly wanted to leave at any point, you could have. You stuck with it, and I commend you for that.
You do you. I'll do me. Let them do them.
I personally struggle to see how anybody could derive pleasure from this, whichever side of it they are on. I understand you wanted to test your limits, try everything there is to try, and whether you enjoyed it or not isn't the most important; you wanted to learn and to experience new things. And while you may have been uncomfortable at times, if you truly wanted to leave at any point, you could have. You stuck with it, and I commend you for that.
You do you. I'll do me. Let them do them.